Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: Yes I Will - Backstreet Boys ::

exactly 1 year ago, i was walking home with a particular girl on the main bridge of TP, after guitar ensemble if i'm not wrong, i asked her if she wanted have dinner and unhesitatingly she said yes, took out her cellphone and sent her father a message saying she'll be eating out... we had mac at tampines interchange, we talked quite abit, and she showed me pictures of her past...

this year she's different... i just hope i'll hear something different next year too...

I open my eyes I see your face
I cannot hide I can't erase
The way you make me feel inside
You complete me girl, that's why
Something about you makes me feel
Baby my heart wants to reveal
I'm down on my knees, I'm asking you
So these three words I wanna hear from you

Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, so these three words I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you
Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, baby I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you

Oh yes I will

This is no ordinary love
And I can never have enough
Of all the things you've given to me
My heart , my soul , my everything
Every night I thank you lord (I thank you lord)
For giving me the strength to love her more
And more each day I promise her
As long as I hear those three words

Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, so these three words I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you
Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, baby I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And someday start a family with you

I stand beside you, in everything you do
Wherever you go, whatever you do
Baby I'll be there (oh baby I will be there)
As God as my witness
I will carry this through
Till death do us part, I promise to you

Yes I will, take your hand and walk with you
Yes I will, Baby baby yes I promise to
Yes I will, give you everything you need
And start a family with you, baby
Yes I will
Yes I will
Yes I will, I promise you
Everything's gonna be all right
It's gonna be all right
I will

Had a Vision
on Tuesday, August 30, 2005, 9:31 PM

:: Finally Fallen... ::

the mighty warrior... sir Andrew which i tot would not fall sick no matter wat cos of his super high imune system has finally fallen sick yesterday...

morning wake up felt a bit strange in the stomach, i tot i was hungry so i went to drank milo and eat some bread... soon my stomach felt more strange at the same time i felt giddy... so i went to do some business... it was watery, not a good sign... i didn't felt relief after my first trip... still not feeling very well, started to become weak, so i played maple thinking it might help but after a while only my condition started to get worst... my head started to get painful... told my sis i had to go to the toilet and about to vomit but i had another watery business again instead... it was terrible, i felt even weaker... then on my way out, i vomitted but i close my mouth so i didn't make any mess then i quickly ran back in, and there was like 4 cups of milo coming out... i only remembered drinking a cup of water and a cup of milo... after vomitting my condition got even worst! i felt cold and hot at the same time, so like any mom would do, i quickly pop down 2 panadols this morning at the first sign... but i guess they all came out hah.. then i went to sleep, with frequent trips to the toilet in between... finally at about 5pm, i couldn't take it anymore after my last most memorialble 45 mins trip to the toilet where i broke out in sweat and pain as if i was pragnant, i seeked help from God, i prayed like i never did b4 until i fell asleep, after waking up, i felt better, then my mom came back... drank some hot tea, ate like 4 mouthfuls of rice fearing that my stomach would reject it again... i only had a small breakfast and dinner the whole day and not surprisingly i was in bed the whole day, drained and dehydrated cos i was afraid to drink water oso... the night was worst... i totally couldn't sleep, i flip here and there until dunno what time until i decided to sing songs and praises that calm me down... i woke up this morning feeling so much better and lighter... 67kg?! oh my... still abit scared of drinking water... i took little sips to wet my lips... thank you Lord! for your everlasting grace and mercy.

Had a Vision
on , 8:37 AM

:: Never Gone - Backstreet Boys ::

I really miss you
There's something that I gotta say

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never seperate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (yeah)
Never gone

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

(Somehow)
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life yeah)

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye (yeah yeah)
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life)

Never gone, never far
In my heart (in my heart is where) is where you are (you are)
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

Had a Vision
on Thursday, August 25, 2005, 12:33 AM

:: Incomplete... haha.. ::

Dear God, Today I want to pray for all the widows and widowers in the world. They have lost their soul mates, their closest confidante, their special loved one, and live's help-meet. This is not an easy thing. Whether married a short time or married for 50 years or more, young or older, the loss is great. I pray for comfort, for peace that only You can give, for Your presence to fill that hole in their lives, for extra special grace from You. I also pray that You would give them precious, understanding friends to lend a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on, just to be there and be quiet someteimes, to help them with things they need help with, and to have fun with. And bless those friends for their ministry. Thank You Lord for Your ever-present Spirit. In Jesus' name, amen.

back... i think... after about 3 mths of intensive DotA playing, once a feeder, now pretty much an 'advanced' player with a highest score of 32 kills using a Crystal Maiden so far...

when playing i manage to forget some1, but each time i'm in school, some1 says 'doesn't matter', sometimes walking through the drinks stall thinking of what drinks to drink, i unusually tought of buying 'green tea'... going through supermarkets looking at peach tea... i feel a certain void inside... indescribably painful yet a pleasant peace came with it... y..? haha! dunno... :_)

as for the title... this song came up when i was about to write this entry... by backstreet boys

Had a Vision
on Monday, August 22, 2005, 1:48 PM

:: Dreams... I wonder what they mean... ::

Speaking of dreams, i had quite a few series of weird dreams again... seems like a long time since i had dreams at night, dunno why... and i had these haunting nightmares of being chased again... I seem to have quite a number of dreams of me running away... then for some time, it stopped but now it came back. I'm usually chased by demons, beast, zombies, ghouls, vampires, etc. and somehow in the dream i cannot run fast like i'm under some sort of 'slow' spell and i always wake up when they catch me...

I remember reading somewhere that these kind of running dreams says that the person is somehow not ready to face the world yet or something liddat... I also use to have dreams of me flying and these kind of dreams say that the person longs for freedom of somesort... well, i dunno but... Anyway, I had this very weird dream the other day dunno why but i remember very clearly...

I was about to go toilet then a big python came out of the toilet bowl covered in shit, i was afraid so i ran away but it didn't chase maybe becos it can't see but when i came back to the toilet, it was still there but the snake was clean... i think it's color was green with yellow rings... or was it the other way round... but anyway, it's a weird dream...

Had a Vision
on Friday, August 05, 2005, 8:17 PM