Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: 24 of September ::

Ahh!! so many things happen... wahahaha!

Maplestory: yay! lvl 31 le... finally got second job advancement for the first time... a page! and hopefully i'll get to 3rd job, a knight! then this morning some1 in maple said i was nice... yay! but didn't fame me... sobz...

Dota: Me don't know how to use Keeper of the Light! must remember to repick... i think i'll write that Knights of DotA guide...

Pizza Hut: Nice! not too sweet, not too sour, not bitter at all, no spice either... but just nice! Long time never eat le... don't even remember how... long time never see her oso... don't know wat to say oso... Must remember to get website for songs... and wat else...? oh shucks i 4got...

Room: still as messy as ever... say i want to clear until now still so jia lat... eh wait! it's not the same, it's getting worst...

My feelings for her: err... did i smile when i saw her?? hmm... wait!! omg! !xobile, she's reading this!! =X

Had a Vision
on Saturday, September 24, 2005, 12:46 AM

:: wow! banquet! ::

first time went to work as a waiter... fun!! very easy... take food, drinks, give ppl... wat else? clean up, clear table, stack up chair... i learn how to use a serving gear... i learn how to manage a group of ppl as well.. i know wat those waiters do behind the scene... i know wat stupid thing rich ppl would do... they actually ordered 5 jars of beer in the end?! lol. dunno wat happened later though, i went on working... strangely, i met some1 with the same birthday, birth month and even birth year at work, i wonder what time she was born... gotta get her number and make friends with her... then can share birthday cost... hehehe! i win both ways...

Had a Vision
on Saturday, September 17, 2005, 11:11 PM

:: Stupid World! I hate U! ::

I hate u world! i was thinking... i mean seriously thinking... all i've been thinking is DotA, Maple, game, ect. But just now i was really thinking.. Why?! y do people have to be so selfish? y all they ever think abt is how is this food or drink or game going to satisfy "ME" or even person, how r "they" going to please "ME"!! Why is this game so stupid.. DotA.. Defense of the Ancients... wtf! y nobody ever create games like "Plan a way to make some1 else happy" where people think of ways to make other people happy and get points deducted for each "I, me or my" word used. Maybe this seems like crap, but i don't give a damn wat the hell "U" think "U" selfish jerks out there! this does not apply to every1 though... just the majority who's walking on the path that is wide n where every1 else walks on... i know right path is narrow, hard to walk and bloody with Christ suffering blood. So that's y so little people walk that path, cos these ppl r not only selfish, they have no balls, no guts! they r afraid of pain, suffering, they r lazy to take the long way, the more diff way.

Speaking of balls, y do so much guys i mean the majority enjoy chasing after balls just to kick it?!! or even slamming it on the ground multiple times b4 jumping up n give it a final slam to the ground. They enjoy such violence?! y? is violence so entertaining tt they much jump for joy when they see some1 kicking a ball strategicly into a big hole!? n even those guys who read books, they read book ya sure... harry potter cast a magic that turns some1 into a snake?! ever wondered y they read books? cos they want to improve "THEMSELVES"... cos "I" am bored... cos it can improve "MY" english... cos it helped "ME" to overcome "MY" fears of walking out of the comfort zone... hah!

Speaking of comfort zone, congrats to those who manage to walk out of there, congrats to those who made everything else outside the comfort zone theirs, and congrats to those who didn't cos their lifeline is nothing but a straight line with only a few bumps but they no their gonna die one day yet they dun do anything abt it... still continueing to "enjoy" the violence, lust, greed that this world offers...

sadly... i too is pulled into this evil vortex that satan has laid in front of me... All i ever think abt is, how to kill this person, how to trick him into my trap, then kill him, how to survive long enough to be strong enough to kill him. So what if i can kill him so many times, my teammate keep letting him kill.. it's a game of teamwork, the diffcult part is not killing, it's building up a strong team tt's difficult... it's as difficult as building a person, winning them over to your thinking is only possible if tt person is not so stubborn, selfish, greedy, ect. If only they are open minded, n say things like... "oh! so tt's y i keep dying. I really suck in this, teach me please." instead of "NOOooooo! no lor! you're WRONG! listen to ME! Can 1! You dun believe me!?" kaoz! tt's threatening friendship manz! for a game?! for goodness sake! I really hate u, satan... I hope Jesus take venges on U for everything u've done to the ppl in this world.

Looking back, there was once i used to be "Holy" reading the bible n stuff... I wonder wat happened... i use to read books like "I kiss dating goodbye" n i really did... but i also read many other things like "men are from mars, women are from venus", an ongoing article from a website abt how to date n sort of manipulating women to their core plus i live with women in my house, in school n even church!? most of the time at least 1:3 ratio?! n actually went over 1:20 sometimes... it was like a total practice ground for me... but i didn't do anything... i just read... k, maybe i did try some... n whether they work, the women themselves know, i dunno cos i never ask... i just enjoy making ppl laugh but i'm jealous of ppl who can make more ppl laugh... something i NEED to change.

haiz... i miss somebody... somebody.. i'm not gonna say who... only 3 person know who... God, me n tt person...

hmm... i should write another entry fast... hope nobody read this entry and start asking if i'm alrite n stuff cos it's pretty obvious, i've tone down... maybe i'm just stress... hah... yay! pizza hut this coming friday... last time i ate pizza hut was like years ago manz... but pizzas... the last time i ate i think was at somebody house... i'm not gonna say who...

somehow i don't feel like ending this entry... feels like i got alot to say...

THE END

Had a Vision
on , 10:16 PM

:: 911 ::

2001
On September 11th, the world was confronted with one of most shocking and sickening sights of modern times. A tragic event that took thousands of lives away, the unexpected attack on the U.S.A. by the terrorists.

3 years later...

2004
On September 11th, my world was confronted with the most surprising and miraculous thing God has ever so gracefully blessed me with. An event that took place through MSN, after many exchange in sms and mp3 songs, the unexpected question came in a flash and the world suddenly turned brighter.

Today...

2005
On September 11th, a world which was once ever so bright disappeared in a blink of an eye most unwillingly and quickly. Amazingly, there is no event today... sadly to say... just wondering what might happen on the next... 911...

The Journey - 911

Time waits for no one, sure as the tide pulls the ocean
Sure as, the path that's been chosen, cannot be changed
In my life's destination, I searched for the explaination
For some kind of reason, for my sorrow and pain
But in my isolation I learned to listen
To be thankful for the love that I'd been given

[Chorus]
This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn I've laughed and cried
As the road unwinds
This is my journey, and I've learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up, to bring my dreams
alive

In my desperation I swore that never again
Would I hear all the laughter of my friends and my family
A million tears that I'd cried then began to dry
In the silence of the night time
I had came to realize
A sweet inspiration filled my horizon
Gave me the heart to go on and never would give in

[Chorus]
This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn I've laughed and cried
As the road unwinds
This is my journey, and I've learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up, to bring my dreams
alive

I'm going to love each moment, of every day and night
I'll look back to the past with the sweetest smile
For now I realise, I've been given the key to life
I've been kissed by the angel by my side

[Chorus]
This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn I've laughed and cried
As the road unwinds
This is my journey, and I've learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up, to bring my dreams
alive
To bring my dreams alive
To bring my dreams alive

Had a Vision
on Sunday, September 11, 2005, 1:15 AM