Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: today, good day! ::

morning i wake up bia a few more exp to reach lvl 19, archlord, then faster bia to school for meeting which i tot i would be late be God's grace never fails... cos i when i reach downstairs, the bus 3 just went n it was 9.20 liao, meeting was 10am, as i waited for the bus, i kept looking at the time, but soon the bus came, but i still tot i would be late until i saw bus 15 coming upon me getting off bus 3 so no more waiting n i actually reached school at 9.50am! wow! God of wonders! Praise the LORD!

then meeting ok loh, still rushing work that never seemed to be complete cos of my working style, i chiong first n get super tired at the end so much i dun really do any work... at first i tot it was the game, but even when i stopped gaming, still no work done... haiz... good thing chee gim is the opposite, he seems pretty much doing work more now than the start, everyday watch naruto, go friendster see girl... chee gim, if u reading this... =P

then lunch, nothing much happened... lian sei called while i was shitting, so i asked her to call back later, so after she called she asked me about the evangelism thingy... i dunno lehz... i guess this is the cross i have to take up everyday... pastor said, every1 has a different cross to carry... maybe going to church is their cross, maybe being patient with an irritating person is another person cross, maybe mine is evangelism... it's what i've never done and still have no confidence to do... God usually uses us in ways we never expect... how should i pray about this...

at night, oh! today is Gerald BD, a bunch of us went pasta eat, got gerald, joanne, allan n me at first, the rest came late... very late, eunice, cai yun, abel n sean... we celebrated his BD at pasta with a cake n song, we were so inconsiderably singing aloud in pasta lol, cos some1 behind gerald was talking on the phone haha... i talked with cai yun n eunice abit to know abit bout them... but most of the time i was crapping! HAH! i answered a funny question today,

cai yun: you all come down from where?
me (looking confused): no, we came up! from downstairs.

it seems i DO have some creativity! then the rest of the crap were more or less repeated so those who know me very long wun find me funny le... T_T
i mean i'm not a funny person loh... i'm an introvert! but somehow i had this mentality of "first impression counts" so usually people i just know or just get to know i would behave really like extrovert but it's just not me... now i say until it feels like a job... my job is to break ice! hmm... i just tot of something... i know y le... cos when i first came church very few people talk to me 1, only the leaders tt i later knew, I'M BEHAVING LIKE A LEADER! AHHH!!!

wait... tt's a good thing rite..? but i feel like i'm not ready lehz... haiz... i even talk to the outcasted ones very much... like allan just now like he talking to himself, every1 else were talking except him... but he look like he doesn't really mind lol... i think i know y God told me i'm not lonely le... cos there are people out there who are the really lonely ones... i've been remade, to help these outcasted people, because i too was like them, outcasted... now i know y i had to go through all those years of "pain n isolation", God wanted me to know how it feels like...

Thank you God, glory to your precious name, Jesus Christ, the Messiah, forever and ever. Amen.

Had a Vision
on Thursday, September 28, 2006, 8:38 PM