:: Deeply in thoughts... ::
Dear beloved heavenly Father,
Thank you for this month, for everything that happened, good, bad, positive or negative, I give you my full gratitude. The string of events had finally ended, despite the many disappointments, everything still ended perfectly because we believed everything that is put into your hands are made perfect.
God, please tell me why, i'm feeling very lost right now...
Before the events, I wrote down where I had time to breathe but apparently those dates were taken away with rehearsals and one of them was used to do bible study with pastor...
During the events I don't seem to have time to buy presents and had to do some rushing here and there... I did play some games in between nights to unwind myself...
I can't believe that my countdown was in the restroom... Something magical happened on the 24th event, Anfernee proposed to Kailin that night after the whole thing... how sweet... The church was remodelled to a new look with the stage moved and everything covered with black cloth with lights that looks like stars in the sky... There was a night event of treasure hunting that was rather cool but tiring... I spend the whole night in church until 7am i reached home and slept at 8am... so my whole Christmas was spent in bed sleeping...
After the string of events, I somehow feel that I've spend my whole december dealing with things rather than people, I seem to have not really talk to anyone during the whole month yet I could feel there were some who wanted my company but there seem to be no time! why!!??
Why did it rain for 48 hrs?! It rained so much i didn't go out at all... God, are u reminding me of the big umbrella you'd give me so i can cover many people younger and weaker than me..? Haiz...
Today, 27th Dec is my medical screening at CMPB, I'll be in army soon and i haven't trained... where has my motivation gone to? God, please tell me...
28th-29th is a stupid DotA competition... need to train... haiz... why did i join in the first place? stupid me!
30th I need to finish whatever i need to do for all my holiday assignments, reports, n projects...
I've been thinking alot about how lousy I am... I shall blog later... Gotta go for screening le...
God please help me...
Had a Vision
on Wednesday, December 27, 2006, 10:00 AM