Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: 2nd book out ::

somehow the 2nd book out was not as exciting as the first 1... this time it feels kinda normal... I didn't do much training this week, only 3 days of training compared to the first book out which had 7 days of training cos fri was tekong challenge n my company was in charge of the safety of the event so almost half the company was sent around tekong while the other half did a major area cleaning.

While thursday i kanna excused cos i fell down, now i know what is the meaning of "the bigger they are, the harder they fall" I fell on hard concrete face first with my hands blocking my head didn't get much damage, but I suffered cuts on my lips, both hands and right knee, sprain on both my hands making life 'harder'. Even a simple thing like peeing and taking off my socks can be so difficult and painful.

Despite the pain, especially from the Potassium Permanganate that the MO gave which I need to apply on my cuts that burns like nothing I've ever experience! A sensation like never before felt can never be 4gotton... I was suppose to apply twice but I only put once cos cannot wash it off and the pain just scares me too much to put again... anyway, despite this... I have to thank God cos I was suppose to do guard duty on sunday which means I'll miss service but becos of this, my guard duty was taken over by my buddy.

When I was in pain that night before I sleep, I asked God why... What am I suppose to learn from this but all I got was a song... now I know why, He wanted me to know that this pain is nothing compared to the pain Jesus had to suffer becos of me, becos of my sins... Sorry God, I have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, forgive me for not standing firm when the storms of life came, forgive me for falling into the deep sea and not having faith in you. God I thank you, I thank you for the endless grace and mercy that you have poured down on me, I pray that your spirit would continue to be with me, guide me on this path, this test that I have to go through, let your light shine through me! In Jesus Christ precious name I pray, Amen.

Had a Vision
on Saturday, October 06, 2007, 9:30 PM