Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: BSB - Helpless When She Smiles ::

She keeps her secrets in her eyes
She wraps the truth inside her lies
And just when I can't take what she's done to me
She comes to me
And leads me back to paradise

She's so hard to hold
But I can't let go

I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless fire in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She danced away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles

Maybe I'd fight it if I could
It hurts so bad, but feels so good
She opens up just like a rose to me
When she's close to me
Anything she asked me to, I would

Out of control
But I can't let go

I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless fire in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She danced away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles

When she looks at me (When she looks at me)
Get so weak

I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless fire in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She danced away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles

Had a Vision
on Sunday, February 24, 2008, 4:32 PM

:: In a Good Wing ::

I'd like to thank you God for covering me under your good wing...

I pray you do for the same for my brothers and sisters...

God, forgive me for swaying away from you...

God, please help me stay still before you...

Had a Vision
on , 2:06 AM

:: Like the Wind ::

Feel like I should blog... but dunno what to blog about...
Feel like the wind... feel like just flying freely in the air not caring about anything else...

I think my subconscience is yearning for freedom once again...
the freedom to go wherever I want
the freedom to sleep whenever I want
the freedom to eat whatever I want
the freedom to speak to whoever I want
the freedom to shout or scream
the freedom to sit or stand
the freedom to enjoy the sun
the freedom to play whole day
the freedom to laugh out loud
the freedom to dance to the music
the freedom to give and take
the freedom to care and share
the freedom to say a prayer

and most importantly

the freedom to wait patiently
the freedom to love...

pssionately, compassionately
truly, madly, deeply
unconditionally
blindly

Had a Vision
on Sunday, February 17, 2008, 12:47 AM

:: AAR for 9th February 2008 ::

The first time I organized a combined cell outing in such a short time as well... Now, to have an After Action Review to better improve my planning capabilities so in time I can plan super surprise parties for the ones I love! >.<

K, anyway... we met at 9.30 harborfront as planned including a 30mins buffer time for 'latecomers' went well... we went off at 9.55am *claps*
Unforeseen Circumstance (UC) #1: There was only a deflated ball n no frisbee when we met. (solved)
Solution: Volleyball players must be called when there is a chance to go sentosa.

UC #2: Lunch, was not available! Neither was breakfast!
Solution: more time for lunch or ask for a potluck, everyone bring food...

UC #3: Lack of activities at sentosa as well as lack of time spent there...
Solution: more time, more group games and ball/frisbee activities catered for all...

UC #4: An urge for ice-cream when we're rushing to catch a movie...
Solution: more buffer time between events

UC #5: Distance from Sentosa to harborfront to city hall to marina square's GV cinema
Solution: even more buffer time needed for travelling (dry run required)

UC #6: Bad movie seats + GV ticketing system down + flood of people watching.
Solution: Earlier booking, click on the sms service, check if it's a special occasion on that day.

UC #7: Nothing to do.
Solution: Plan B, C, D, E and F... more planning basically...

To every1 who came:
My apologies, the day didn't went as 'Spectacular' as promised but it was surely 'Madness' for me at least... I would appreciate your feedback and so as to improve myself.

Had a Vision
on Sunday, February 10, 2008, 2:51 PM

:: same old brand new me ::

it's the 3rd day as a civilian and that's all it takes to change me back to my old self... slacking around the house, sitting at the com, surfing the web, playing with photoshop...

And I tot I would use the time better if I was given more... I guess i was wrong...

On wednesday, I reach home I helped fixed the new scv to all the 3 tv...

Yesterday was quite a wasted day, why?
Cos firstly, I stayed in bed for a total of 11hrs from 11pm to 10am which I could have woke up n went jogging instead... Then I stay at home whole day n sat at the com making a new cover design for my journal (importance level: 1/5) at the same time I did some measurement taking from my room n sketch out some design of my room (importance level: 1/5) watched a show called Perfect Proposal (importance level: 2/5) at 3pm, 5.30pm I watched an anime called Honey and Clover (importance level: 1/5) lastly I watched Happy Feet in the evening (importance level:1/5) den dunno what happen, it was 1am already.

Today I wanted to go jogging but I couldn't wake up so in the end i just had breakfast with Justin instead, bought some stuffs den went home.. fix up my printer finally! (importance level: 3/5) print out my journal cover n some of the photo's I asked from cm... >.< (importance level: ?/5) Den afternoon ard 1pm, went to my cousin's house for visitation, take ang bao n sat down watch tv al the way till 4pm (importance level: 2/5) came home, open laptop n stare blankly into the screen for about 10mins n decided to blog how much time I've wasted... I think I need to review my new year's resolution... my purpose... my vision... and my goals...

btw, this is the stupid journal cover i've been doing the whole day...

Had a Vision
on Friday, February 08, 2008, 5:01 PM

:: buy first n regret later ::

A common phrase for women in the society due to how 'irrational' they are compared to men but today, i have proved otherwise n have disgracefully brought down men by buying first but regret later...

I went to queensway to buy a Saucony Progrid triumph 5 red colored structured cushioning shoes for endurance training purposes for a price of $141 after a 25% discount den i realise my fren bought from ocs for $92 a similar one...

Then I bought a jeans without trying it out thinking that as long as he said it's baggy means it baggy somemore he said it was comfortable which i felt n also think it was until i reach home to try n realise it was too tight in the butt area but bo bian liao... wasted $50 liao... T_T
So i gave my mei instead n now she looks hip-hop like!

But there's one last thing i bought which i didn't regret is the $50 shirt... fits my ah beng style... n also my jacket as well as my hat!!

Had a Vision
on Wednesday, February 06, 2008, 5:07 PM