Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: BSB - How Did I Fall In Love With You*** ::

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Bridge:
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall, in love, with you?

*** chipmunk version >.<

Had a Vision
on Wednesday, April 30, 2008, 8:57 PM

:: Closing for renovation ::

It's time...
When an eagle has wings big enough to fly, it will fly off. It should else it would be a chicken!

To the people who's been with this dream...

It's time for me to fade away
Making not much of a difference
But I'll come back some day
Bringing so much new experience
So don't worry for those who care
I'm still here, just not there...

Anyway, my plans are to learn new dance from anywhere n everywhere possible...
If not, maybe I'm playing Cabal...

Had a Vision
on Sunday, April 27, 2008, 3:06 PM

:: Today's word is... Relax! ::

Recently, it's been quite a wreck here and there... not only now but a month ago, a year ago also.. and not only me, but also everyone around me!

Everybody has problem, but everybody has different ways to deal with them... some people fight, some flight and some forget... there are even more ways den these 3 to access a problem..

If God didn't say anything, I would have another 8~9 post to blog about all the problems I faced these few weeks but instead I'll just do 1 impt one...

In my mist of uncertainty, God just remind me of something I knew long ago but have forgotten due to my ignorance...

In Philippians 4:11-13, paul said..
"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength."

I have forgotton I still have Him, and all I need is Him...

Everything else doesn't matter...

SO!
Let's start again!

Time to pick myself up from sulking in problem, solution, problems, solution. But instead start focusing on pleasing God, pleasing others, 4getting the past, planing the future and living the present with peace in mind and heart.

Time to continue walking my purposeful life! Yeah!

Had a Vision
on Sunday, April 13, 2008, 5:22 PM

:: 2008 New Years' Resolution (re-write) ::

End of ~~June~~ April
~~Survive JCC in Brunei~~
Go for X-ray and hope I get a good result

End of ~~August~~ June
~~Survive Taiwan~~
Recovered completely
Get posted into Logistics, Intelligence or Signals hopefully

~~Sept~~ Dec 13
Commission as a Honourable Gentleman & Officer

Dec 31
Revive my Dancing Spirit

Had a Vision
on Saturday, April 05, 2008, 5:45 PM

:: I want to kekeke... ::

What I really want to do is to impact people..
I want people to be independently dependent on God..
People will believe in God because I believe they will..
I want people to be able to make decisions..
I want to catch them when they fall..
I want to teach dance to those who want to learn..
I want to cheer those who are feeling down..
I want to be there for those who are going through tough times..
I want to heal broken hearts..
I want to protect the weak and the wounded..
I want to influence people who are on the wrong path..
I want to hold the hands of the one I love..
I want to serve God.. with my life.. with this poem..

Lord, Oh God, Oh Mighty One
It doesn't matter what we want
What really matters is what You want

Forgiveness, mercy, love and grace
Don't let His blood go to waste
Please make my body a holy place

Guide me, teach me, Holy Spirit
Cut away the leeching and deceiving weeds
Then plant in me the fruitful seeds

Had a Vision
on , 12:28 AM

:: My prophesy unfolding... ::

13 June 2006 a prophesy told was blogged down

Says that the world will attract me sometimes and make my heart not know how to love Jesus even more because I cannot serve Him and money.

This was the choice I had to make a month ago... to choose between money or time for God!

Says that my choice was not blurry but clear and I have to choose. And when I choose Jesus, He's ready to help me.

This time I really had to choose cos I just had to make a choice. During Sunday, when I reached church, I threw my bag down and immediately I fell to my knees following my tears that continued through the sermon also... Never had I been so lost till I cried till my face swell... Apparently, I really needed God to give me a sign, He sent help immediately, His servant came and ask where I was going and pointed to me the direction. Praise the Lord!

Says that only when I choose Jesus there will be peace and joy.

Here I am on a tuesday afternoon after making the choice overfilled with peace and joy beyond what I ever imagined! Now I have more time to peacefully pursue my dream and plan for more joyful events!

Says He is going to help me in my ways towards authority making me more submissive.

This is already in progress, I'm already under the authority of Singapore's most disciplined school, with the best training in leadership.

Says He'll give me a bigger umbrella after I throw away the smaller one. Says that when I hold that big umbrella, He will choose me as a leader.

A few weeks ago, the umbrella I left behind my bed for 2 months was confiscated and thrown away by my instructor when he checked it during inspection. This reminded me of the umbrella in my prophesy and made me started thinking bout it again but this wasn't the umbrella... It was actually the mind-set of thinking bout the short term goal of commissioning and making the most money out of NS that I had to throw away for it was nothing compared to the BIG dream I already had but forgotton in my life. Initially I didn't know what the umbrella meant in my prophesy but yesterday, I've been confirmed. When I was booking in, in the cab, on my way to camp, I asked God if all this was the umbrella in my prophesy and out of nowhere an umbrella sign "coincidently" appeared at the side of the highway. I smiled when I saw it cos I knew God was winking at me.

Says I must humble myself and when I am willing to, the wisdom and courage in me will reveal itself and my joy will overflow.

Yesterday morning during wing commanders talk, he talk talk talk until suddenly he said "H is for Humility! Write that down! H is also for Humble! H-U-M-B-L-E! you must be humble blah blah blah" I saw God winking at me again... I guess it was time, so I approached my PC to confirm if I OOC will I recourse into pro term which he did and told me to "take a break" after accessing my situation. So I went to the MO, and he didn't hesitate to OOC me after accessing my situation as well. I suddenly felt happier... Then when I went back to look for my PC for my last interview where he took off my rank. My shoulder felt lighter but I felt like a lower class person already but at the same time I started talking with confidence again like how I use to... Sir Andrew was suddenly born again!

Had a Vision
on Tuesday, April 01, 2008, 2:48 PM