Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: Tobymac - Burn For You ::

I'm a brand new man, I'm a conscious man
I'm a man who's burnin' for you
The mistakes I've made have been chased away to the bottom of the ocean blue
I'm a brand new man in a foreign land, I'm a man who's feelin' that fire
And it's all so clear when I'm standing here at the peak of my desire

So won't you move me like you used to
I want the world to know I burn for you

I feel revived again, I am alive again
(Burnin' for you) You got me lifted and lifted you lift me up
I feel revived again, I'm energized again
(Burnin' for you) You got me lifted and lifted you lift me up

Woke up in a sweat, those ghosts in my head
Had a grip, but I slipped on by
It's a whole new day as the darkness fades
And the sun's climbing in the sky
I concede, my love, that I need your love
I'm before you, a broken man
And it's only you, no substitutes who can renew this soul again

So won't you move me like you used to
I want the world to know I burn for you

I feel revived again, I am alive again
(Burnin' for you) You got me lifted and lifted you lift me up
I feel revived again, I'm energized again
(Burnin' for you) You got me lifted and lifted you lift me up

You got me higher than Kilimanjaro
Got me believin' I can "save the day"
I'm up and running like their ain't no tomorrow
I'd rather burn for you than fade away
I'd rather burn for you than go my way

I feel revived again, I am alive again
(Burnin' for you) You got me lifted and lifted you lift me up
I feel revived again, I'm energized again
(Burnin' for you) You got me lifted and lifted you lift me up

I'm a whole new guy with a whole new vibe
Changed inside - more flame in the fire
Can't stop, won't stop praying for desire
Like the bunny on the screen feel so energized
Old shell gone without a trace, new face
No more shortness of breath, new pace
Live life now without the taste of fear
TOBYMAC, Double Dutch now let the smoke clear

Had a Vision
on Friday, August 08, 2008, 6:25 PM

:: Another test.. ::

After the 40 days Nations Fast, which honestly I didn't abide it all the way neither was I very dilligent in prayer or the fasting book n not to mention the most impt, the bible...

I'm about to embark into the jungle of Temburong in Brunei,
where I will face God's test of faith in walking through mother nature herself,
with all the creepy crawlies,
the purest of darkness,
the sound of the night,
the parasites,
the thorny vines,
the scorching heat,
the absolute coldness,
the thirst and hunger,
and the final 2 greatest challenge...
The Rainforest Storms
&
The Unknown

God, prepare my heart for this journey I'm about to embark on unwillingly, and make me see this as an adventure of a lifetime!
Strengthen my soul to see this as an exciting new experience!
Enlighten my mind to see this as an opportunity to learn more new things!
Toughen my spirit to see this as a chance to become stronger!
Oh Holy Spirit, SET me on FIRE once again!!! Let me burn for you!!

Had a Vision
on , 5:56 PM

:: Another Bad Habit ::

After 3 days of playing stupid, seriously stupid games on facebook... I've realised a really bad habit that I have... well, not really that bad but still...

When I was young and had alot of homework, I play my sega n 4get about the time, 4get about the homework, 4get about the heavy workload...

As I grew older, I had Playstation, the workload didn't change but this time, 'girl' suddenly appeared out of nowhere... so I played even more to 4get the time, 4get the work, 4get the girls..
Then I grew even older, more mature, I got some money and a computer! Workload was even heavier, responsibility even more, girls are starting to flood the world! or at least my world..
So now I played maplestory almost 24/7 followed by Pool, followed by DotA then back to Maplestory again! Just so I could... 4get...

Finally, I'm an adult, I realised how much time I've wasted on playing and playing and playing all these stupid programmes man-made by man that just transfer data from nowhere to nowhere... I decided to stop!
I came into the army...
Workload was so heavy they had to shave off my hair cos it's adding weight...
Responsibility felt like walking under a neverending waterfall...
Women suddenly vanished! The world suddenly turned so dark I couldn't even see my hands.
This time, I turned to facebook?!?!?!

When things seems to be looking bad, I run, I freeze... I never fought back... until the last minute where I always seem to only survive through and not victor over..

As an officer-to-be, the word 'give up' should not even cross my mind but honestly speaking, how many times has it crossed my mind not including the times I actually GAVE UP!

Even before I entered army, I gave up on my studies, my results, my napfa, even right before I entered, I gave up on my first one and only love that was going well cos I tot I couldn't handle her, even as a cadet I gave up halfway through OCS just because of a little hairline fracture! Even now, I gave up the dream of getting Sword of Honour and getting driving license before I commission just because I cannot take the heat, the stress and the competition...

Sometimes, I just wonder... God, am I really cut out to be a leader? Can I say no? Can I just give up trying so hard to be one and just follow... I think I'm more of a supporter...

Had a Vision
on , 5:10 PM

:: Old fren talkin bout old flames haha.. ::

Went out with Chin Beng yesterday for navigation Ex in town!

Shop abit, stop abit, eat abit, walk abit, talk abit and realised how childish we were when we were in Secondary school... many things I didn't know I finally knew yesterday and realised it doesn't really matter, all the jealousy and misunderstanding caused by BGR.. especially when we talked about who liked who haha, so funny... all the puppy loves lol.. surprisingly, a few really did last long even till now.. amazing!

We tried as much as possible not to talk about army stuff but it's kinda hard to not talk about the only thing we have been doing at least 5 days a week rite? So I took this opportunity to ask this question, "What do you think is a good PC?" I was quite surprised at the answer from a MAN's perspective, interesting... very interesting... To put in short, he said that its about "knowing what you want."

So, I shot that question at him but I myself didn't quite have that answer 100%...

What do I really want?

Had a Vision
on , 4:50 PM

:: Perfect!!~ ::

Woah!!! I found the perfect game.. well, not really perfect, but I think it's perfect.

It's called Perfect World Online

What's so special about this game is well, you can make your appearance like anybody you want! Even movie stars you see in the movies!!
There's also various mounts in the game like the many animal mounts and also the flying mounts like birds and phoenix! What's even more cool is that there are flying sword mounts and Wings!!!
There's more of course, but these 2 features are good enough for me to want to play the game already!! Woo!!

Grr.. ORD faster come!!!

ok... I've browsed and realized it's battle gameplay isn't really good, grinding seems boring as the skills aren't as spectacular as Cabal... I think it's more of a game for explorers...

Had a Vision
on Thursday, August 07, 2008, 11:58 AM

:: Doing Nothing... ::

I keep telling myself to not waste my time but here I am, sitting in my room doing nothing the whole day... Nothing to watch on TV also... Browsed the movies and realised I haven't watch Dark Knight and Hellboy 2 but nvm.. next time watch on tv... I also browsed the movies coming and saw a few nice ones like,

CYBORG SHE
21 Aug, Action, Official Website: http://cyborg.gyao.jp/

WALL-E
23 Aug, Animation Blockbuster, Website: http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/wall-e/

MY SASSY GIRL
4 Sept, Romantic Comedy, Trailer Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXsMTxrsQR4

MAKE IT HAPPEN
4 Sept, Dance

THE HOUSE BUNNY
1 Oct, Comedy, Web link: http://www.thehousebunny.com/

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3: SENIOR YEAR
23 Oct, Musical Comedy

Woo! I feel a movie marathon coming!!

Anyway, I wanted go out today but I didn't cos I actually wanted to cut hair but I thought if I were to go out just to cut hair I'd be wasting my time as well so I stayed at home to gather the stuffs I can do outside and go out do them one shot!

SO,
tmr I'll be going window shopping with my new CITIBANK credit card!
Go Courts Mega Raya Sale to get a big thumdrive and see if can find a bluetooth speaker!
Go Takashimaya National Day 10 day sale and see if I can find a wallet..
Go Heeren get my Heeren Privilege Card and continue looking for a wallet?
Go Borders find Step Up 2 DVD..
Go somewhere buy Rash Powder..
Go EZ House Cut Hair..

Had a Vision
on Wednesday, August 06, 2008, 11:37 AM

:: Dreaming of Words... ::

I had a dream of me being very sad when overload with alot of homework and I had 2 supposingly close fren in my dream who kept laughing and joking about while I face my last essay homework with the title "Words" and I had to write a ten thousand word count for that...

Then I had another dream of me being involved in a wedding, YT's wedding! There were lots of people, nice wallpapers, red carpet, den there was this stairs up where I didn't go instead I wait for them to walk pass the arch of swords and down, I saw the sword bearers being blur of being unsure of what to do... some haven't draw their sowrd out, some drinking water, and one getting ready to do the honor of whacking the bride.. This was when I complained to someone how old I am and still single... I woke up and realised I dunno who the bride was... ah shucks!

Had a Vision
on , 10:45 AM

:: Death... ::

Last night I watched 2 movies about love afterlife, like ghost having relationship human...

In the show there were many regrets even after death there were still regrets..

This morning when I woke up I was still in the mist of the show thinking If this last week b4 I go JCC was instead my last week on earth.. how then would I be spending my last few days? Would I just AWOL to spend time with the people I love? Would I continue going to the army do my routines? I really don't know... Would I leave with regrets?

Had a Vision
on Sunday, August 03, 2008, 2:09 PM

:: Jungle, Here I come! ::

Guys, I'll be going brunei soon...

9 Aug 2008, 0255 hrs is my flight and my flight back back is
30 Aug 2008, 0005 hrs means I'm flying back on a weekend!

But before that I'll be having my block leave from 6 Aug (wed) - 8 Aug (fri)... Hope I'll spend these 3 days wisely but I'm guessing everyone will probably be 'too busy' to meet up cos it's weekdays..

Final Words: I'll miss you guys... (this is to everyone I know)

Had a Vision
on Saturday, August 02, 2008, 12:56 PM