Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

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Had a Vision
on Monday, December 29, 2008, 7:38 PM

:: Christmas Wish ::

Dear God,

I dun believe in Santa but I believe in a loving God who dun make wishes comes true but patiently listens to my cry and answers my prayer according to wats best for me.

God, I'd like to pray for a happy ending, a Really Merry Christmas and a Really Happy New Year. And so I pray you give me back that little kid in me that I gave up on. I'd like to spend every Christmas like a kid opening presents hoping for a big surprise, hoping one fine day I'll finally open presents with that special someone you've preapared for me. Thank you God, thanks for hearing my prayer.

In Jesus Christ most precious name, amen.

Had a Vision
on Thursday, December 25, 2008, 2:08 AM

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she still swearing...

Had a Vision
on , 1:39 AM

:: 2008 not so merry Christmas... ::

This year's thanksgiving I'd like to thank reality for all the

this year that 'accidently' landed on me.

I'm just wondering if everyone is having a MERRY Christmas... cos I just came home from the movies and saw my mom crying cos dad didn't get her anythin' even dinner...
Of cos I asked his side of the story and he gives the usual 'I worked so hard everyday blah blah blah' that dads always use everywhere in the world... which we really cannot deny that it's a fact which I just realised it's very annoying cos it's like how a child uses her 'crying' to win a situation.

I also dun feel very merry this year, neither am I positively looking forward to or feel grateful for anything or anyone especially this year cos of the extended stay in 'Hell' and then in the 'Dragon's Den' where I ate SHIT like I never ate before... and what do I get? Happy parents? Even if I ate a shit 10 times bigger, they still wouldn't be happy... y? Y didn't it struck my mind earlier "Would u be happy seeing ur son eating shit everyday for a year?"

Haiz... My positive energy seemed to have been drained away by something so evil and cruel called 'Reality'.

I watched 'Bedtime Stories' just now and find it quite a stupid show cos of it's content but then again... that's Waltz Disney for u...

Spoiler
Skeeter was a very positive boy full of energy but reality made him realize that there are no happy ending in this world and that's wat he told the little kids, shattering what they believed in so much... so they gave Skeeter a 'not so good ending' as well. BUT like any Waltz Disney stories, it still ends up a happy ending with the 'hero' saving the world, getting the girl and living happily ever after.

So here comes the real 'reality'...
me, you, him, her...

Where's our happy ending?

Had a Vision
on , 12:55 AM

:: Random Date ::

I was kinda bored yesterday, so I went to a random site and entered a random birthday of some1 I know...

and the results were shocking!

But then again, when I tried another site, it showed 54% so oh well, back to dreaming!

Had a Vision
on Tuesday, December 16, 2008, 7:56 AM

:: Change for the better ::

Improve and upgrade would be a better word.

Change is a rather sensitive thing to touch on as well a very big subject to talk about. Cos people have this concept at the back of their head that changes usually involves sacrifices to be made.

There are debates about whether change is good or bad but I believe it's not about that but rather having a good or bad change. So let's not use the word change anymore.

I dun wanna change lives, I want lives to be improved!

I dun wanna see people change, I want to see improvements!

I dun wanna see a change in character, I want to see an upgrade!

I was reading an article from askmen.com about this guy who learnt that looking good is feeling good. And when you feel good you naturally feel an aura of confidence. So now for me to get back that confidence that I use to have is take that first step.

Looking good.

Had a Vision
on Tuesday, December 09, 2008, 2:54 PM

:: Comfort zone = Love zone? ::

I was reading this article, 51 ways to expand your comfort zone and there was one part where it wrote comfort zone is equals to money zone and also adds that it is also equals to love zone, joy zone, and more and in order for these zones to increase, I must start from expanding my comfort zone.

Hmm... where shall I start?

Had a Vision
on , 2:28 PM

:: Ghost Busters ::

I had a dream that I was a ghost buster and I had to follow these phantom footprints until they started to walk up walls and splitting up... as in literally, the left foot took a left path n the right foot took a right path...

I took a left path and came across this boy who said wanted to help me and brought me into a cinema, I exit the place immediately as there were people inside and this wierd boy brought me to this broken down cinema just a few meters away so obviously to me he seemed suspicious and I just took a bet and shot my ray gun at him and he came out of his human form and revealed that he is a ghost so as I have him in my ray, I dropped the ghost capturing device and captured that ghost!

Afterwards, I walked out to link up with the rest of the team who were chasing the other foot steps so I went to help and I caught a few more wierd ghost but I can't remember the description of the ghost..

Had a Vision
on , 1:21 PM

:: Days of Elijah ::

I came to realise at some point of being emo after hearing this song, I saw images of my dark clothes turning white. That was when I realize it's ok to be different cos that's what I am, that is what God made me to be. It is what sets me apart, it is my strength.
I believe that everyone is different, unique in their own way, it's just how much you accept it. Cos if you dun accept the way you are whether you are tall, short, fat, skinny, four-nippled, you would feel outcasted and try to change to fit into the crowd making yourself feel uncomfortable because you're trying to be someone you're not. I'm not saying change is bad but that another topic to cover.

Anyway here's the song that turned my clothes white and brought me back from the state of emo-ness.

These are the days of Elijah
Declaring the Word of the Lord

And these are the days of your servant Moses
Righteousness being restored

And though these are days of great trials
Of famine and darkness and sword

Still we are the voice in the desert crying
Prepare ye the way of the Lord!

Behold He comes! Riding on the clouds!
Shining like the sun! At the trumpet call
Lift your voice! It's the year of Jubilee!
And out of Zion's hill salvation comes!

And these are the days of Ezekiel
The dry bones becoming as flesh

And these are the days of your servant David
Rebuilding a temple of praise

And these are the days of the harvest
The fields are as white in the world

And we are the labourers in your vineyard
Declaring the word of the Lord!

Behold He comes! Riding on the clouds!
Shining like the sun! At the trumpet call
Lift your voice! It's the year of Jubilee!
And out of Zion's hill salvation comes!

There's no God like Jehovah!

There's no God like Jehovah!

There's no God like Jehovah!

There's no God like Jehovah!
(Repeat 3 times)

Behold He comes! Riding on the clouds!
Shining like the sun! At the trumpet call
Lift your voice! It's the year of Jubilee!
And out of Zion's hill salvation comes!

Behold He comes! Riding on the clouds!
Shining like the sun! At the trumpet call
Lift your voice! It's the year of Jubilee!
And out of Zion's hill salvation comes!

And out of Zion's hill salvation comes!

And out of Zion's hill salvation comes!

Had a Vision
on , 12:38 PM

:: Rare things should be treated differently ::

Pearls are rare and they should be left rare because rare is beautiful!

I don't like it when things like pearls are put together like this..

It's so... Eee...

But if...

They were left alone, being rare as it is, treated differently..

Don't you think they'd stand out?

Had a Vision
on Thursday, December 04, 2008, 11:59 AM

:: I agreed ::

"If it's so obvious disabled people aren't contagious,why do so many of us avoid them?"

I saw this in facebook's minekey and I agreed... but Wai?!

Why does the majority agrees... is there something that can be done about it?

Had a Vision
on Wednesday, December 03, 2008, 8:34 PM

:: Stack of presents ::

Presents are great gifts, covered in colorful wrappers filled with a surprise!

I had a dream about presents today, I dreamt that there were many gifts I kept with me, ungiven...
Either cos I didn't want people to think otherwise, or the opportunity didn't arise.

Until one fine Christmas, which I don't think is the coming one, my chance card finally came! When a 'give all you wan' gift giving session took place. Like a crazy santa clause, I gave stacks of presents to people I kept my gifts from. But to my surprise, they did the same! They also kept stacks of presents waiting for the right opportunity to come by.. and wats even more surprising was they kept it for the same reasons...

Had a Vision
on Tuesday, December 02, 2008, 11:08 AM