Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: Leader of Dreams ::

Hmm... this personality test I took from jy blog, i always get different result from different quiz... facebook i got ENTJ, here I got INFP... so different.. First, I'm told I'm a General, a leader then now tell me I'm a Dreamer... Means what? General Dreamer? or a Leader of Dreams? haha

anyway, here's the quiz:
http://kisa.ca/personality/index.php

Here's where you can read about the result: (change the infp to the result u got)
http://www.geocities.com/lifexplore/infp.htm

Something I find true in INFP... "At times, this characteristic leaves them feeling isolated, especially since INFPs are found in only 1 percent of the general population."

I guess I'm still me.. having rare personality splits... I'm starting to believe I'm the type of chimera with 2 individual brains that grows dominant on different situations or maybe it's time based... XP

Had a Vision
on Friday, August 14, 2009, 10:20 AM

:: I Said A Prayer For You Today ::

"I said a prayer for you today and know God must have heard.
I felt the answer in my heart although He spoke no word.
I didn't ask for wealth or fame, I knew you wouldn't mind.
I asked Him to send treasures of a far more lasting kind.
I asked that He'd be near you at the start of each new day.
To grant you health and blessings and friends to share your way.
I asked for happiness for you in all things great and small.
But it was for His loving care I prayed the most of all."

Thank you God for loving me and listening to my sigh.
Please answer all my who, what, when, where and why.

How did a heart so big and strong get so easily broken.

Words are not enough to express how much I feel at the moment.

I really hate this time of grinding and testing.

The worst thing is not this, it's the waiting.

Had a Vision
on Thursday, August 13, 2009, 11:29 PM

:: Sweet Bloody Morning ::

I had another sweet dream this morning about a girl.. but I wun be blogging down... cos I 4gotten the details... but not the girl though.. =X

But it was a nice, fuzzy, and warm feeling. These are the few things in life that keeps me going. Reminding me that God has already prepared an unimaginable future for me, and I need not worry.

Anyway, I had quite a bloody start. I went to the toilet and spit out blood. Apparently my surgery wound is still bleeding, I'm starting to wonder if I'll faint from lost of blood... better keep my activities low for now.. Still need to study for M9 though.. sianz... I hate studying...

Had a Vision
on Tuesday, August 04, 2009, 10:31 AM

:: Mummy Nightmare ::

ok, I had a nightmare this time and it was only 5hrs to REM..

I was doing something in a mall or somewhere then I met Ivan, said I wanted to go school already but he say he'll give me a lift in his car, but then he held me back after we came upon this museum-like place that was having a rare opening meaning it's only opening today and maybe the next time in a very long time. He tell me to stay for a while to go see see.

It was an exhibition on mummies coming to life. We were brought down a levels underground, and we carried a special lamp, then the tour guide showed us how the mummies came to life by bringing the lamp near to the coffins which they really did came to life and walked towards us. I tried it in another room then when I came out of the room, everyone was gone.

I panicked and quickly went back, took the lift back up, when the lift opened, the lobby was in pitch darkness, I quickly ran towards the front door that was made of steel. I was scared, I tried to open it but it wouldn't budge. It was still in pitch darkness and there was nobody in the lobby room but I could still see as there was a table lamp lit up at the front desk. I went to duplicate it (somehow), then I stretched the duplicate bigger so theres more light then something happened and I woke up in a little shock state. Stupid nightmare, what was that all about? Maybe cos I'm going to the dentist for my wisdom tooth surgery...

ok, interpreted... I'm just unsure of something, but eventually everything will be all right after I gain more understanding. Don't understand the mummies coming alive part though..

Had a Vision
on Monday, August 03, 2009, 5:56 PM

:: Best Swimmer Dream ::

4th dream in a row...

This dream had 3 parts,

First part was when I was in a group, we were sort of on a mission, a group of abt 7 of us didn't follow the rest of the bigger group to the place where we were suppose to go and joined another big group to play water bomb games in a different room. Our water bombs were different, we actually used mango juice and some bags of water bomb with mango cubes inside. We were eventually caught by the other group ic as we had a different arm pad symbol. This IC wanted to report us but we told them we know the other teams' IC and that IC came and say we can stay as we're ok. We were happy.

Suddenly, this guy rushed in from a backdoor and said someone wanted to see me immediately conderning some stuffs that only I knew. So I followed all the way to this hdb where I saw that person and hid first, preparing my documents, while this guy kept disturbing me, telling me about this insect on the wall and brushed it off revealing that it's a bee, slowing down my process of gathering my documents. While I search for the documents, they were asking for me, but I wasn't prepared until I took out my last documents from a very messy file of mine that was also in a very messy bag and wanted to go downstairs where this middle age woman was.

Before I knew it, I ended up in a room full of people, I left my bag(it was a sling bag btw) and was suddenly in a swimming class learning how to swim but the way we were taught how to swim was rather dangerous as we were not learning in a swimming pool but rather at the beach or maybe a lake, but definitely not a pool yet somehow it was clear underneath enough for us to see the ground and it was around 2 to 3 metres in height. I knew how to swim already so I swam my normal forg style while others used freestyle and some were struggling.

Before I knew it, I was the fastest swimmer, and was in a competition where I won first prize, then everyone started to treat me different in a room I came out from there were alot of people, but when I went back in to collect my sling bag, there was nobody in the room, and I went to collect my bag myself thinking about those people who I conclude were hypocrites, as they never even helped me get my bag. At that point I knew, "so what if i'm the best, there's no one to really share this happiness with" I took a backdoor out, avoiding those hypocrites. This was were a few different people. I 4got their faces, I woke up. End.

Had a Vision
on Sunday, August 02, 2009, 8:48 AM

:: Another Game Dream ::

Yes, 3rd dream in a row.. and it's always ard 7hrs into my sleep..

This time, it's also like a game.. there were 3 characters in a screen where we were clicking on cubes to unlock our powers.. eventually, I got the best 1 and acquired a sword. The chinese floppy type of sword. It's powers are said to be hidden so throughout the adventure I kept trying to find out how to use.

We started off by crossing a jungle, and started swimming in a river, somehow I could swim super fast to the other side. We reached a ancient ruins, we went in and it was empty and as we went in further, we ended up in the highest floor of some 7 storey warehouse, I lost my teammates so I searched around abit and wanted to walk back but the river had dried up and banks were too deep and steep to go back so I continued searching around the warehouse and saw a few mama shops around the corner.

I looked around somemore and saw a nearer mama shop, went closer and I saw aq and sm riding a super extended trolley, then I went to retrieve them so we're now in a party and we continued our adventure. They say they're having fun.

We came out of the building and now we're walking on a sidewalk that looks like the one at raffles place, there I continued trying to figure out the hidden powers swinging it in different ways like how spider-man was trying out how to shoot web in the movie.

Until my enemies came, 2 guys and a girl, I tried even harder to unlock the powers in my sword as I kept running till the skies turned color den the guy tried to grab hold of me but a cheveron mark grew on his hand and he started protecting me instead. Same for the girl as well and the last enemy, they then brought me to their rover and drove me off.. I was starting to doubt if they really had become my allies.. So I hesitated awhile before I took the ride as the building beside us had an awefully bad aura.

It ended, and I went back to the start screen where we select our powers. This time I only 2 characters, I got a very good character with the ability to summon treant trolls and 2 other good abilities but my teammate didn't get any special power so I reset the roll but my alarm rang. End.

k, lemme try interpreting my own dream..
Coming out of a jungle probably means I'm coming out of a problem.

Swimming strongly across a river probably means I'm going through a big change and will achieve great success.

Going into a ruin probably means treasure I'm going to find in the near future but finding it empty probably means the emotional emptiness that I'll find as well.

The few mama shop probably means the little things that feed me emotionally.

Then the part about being chased would means my insecurities while the part I fought back with my sword means my hostility towards the enemies who are probably symbolising my inner conflicts or it could mean I'll have helpful friends.

Finally, The evil big building that in the end I escaped from is kinda confusing.. cos big building means a positive change, escaping means I may not want that change and the dark aura probably means the dark side of the positive change... hmm...

Had a Vision
on Saturday, August 01, 2009, 9:02 AM