Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: Laying the first brick ::

If you're going to build a wall, what's the first thing to do?

Lay down the first brick! YES!

It's been a month since I started my journey, and today I passed my second paper! Yay! One more to go! And what's more? Tmr I'll be officially contracted to be a Financial Consultant under AIA. Woo!!

Maybe there's not much done, just two papers. Maybe there isn't any significant change or progress. I may or may not achieve success in the future as there are no guarantees in life... BUT what's more important is ACTION being taken!

If you lay down that first brick, are you better, and closer to your goal than those who have no goals or worst, those who just talk and talk and think and don't do anything at all?! YES!

Successful people take MASSIVE ACTION!

Jiayou! Ah Fu! Gambateh!

Dear God, thank you so much for today, thank you for reassuring me without hesitating when I annoyingly continued asking for it. Even though I wasn't really sure about my paper today but You, God of Wonders, made a way for me. Even though I'm feeling unwell and tired but You, Almighty God, gave me the strength to carry on through the day. I pray for more reassurance as I must admit that I am weak, my faith and confidence in this path are low but I BELIEVE that You will be my guide, holding me by Your side. In Jesus Christ most precious name I pray, amen.

Had a Vision
on Thursday, October 29, 2009, 10:28 PM

:: 600th Post - Worried ::

I'm getting a little worried of my future. I'm worried for the family. I'm 23, my dad is 58, the only sole bread winner of the family of 5. Mei still studying and definitely can't work anytime soon. The government said 55 was the retirement age so my dad is 3 years overdue...

I also feel that he should retire le... but if he retire or worst case it anything were to happen, who will take care of the family expenses, house and car loans when there have been no savings from my parents? My mom? she's 50, no skills, no education, attitude problem, will she be able to support? Unlikely...

My older sis? She's 27 so by right she's suppose to be married and have at least a stable income to help support the family but God had other plans. She had an accident when she was very young that resulted in some brain damage that made her capacity to learn very little. She scored all zeros for her primary school and went to katong special school. She didn't fit in either cos of her attitude, she got easily angered. Always quarreling with the family except me. I asked for Jesus's eyes... God wants me to learn something I'm just not sure what it is yet...

So who's next in line? ME!!! The only son! but beside the point, I'm the only one left to be the next sole bread winner! I MUST do something about it! They tell me not to stress about my life but HOW?!! In 2 years time, he's gonna be 60, I'll be 25, when he's 65, I'll be 30! And at 30 if I have a job that pays 2k-3k will it be enough for a family of 5 still with loans and having parents that DON'T save money! How will we survive?! Reality will hit me in the face and tell me that even dying is not a choice! Then How?

That's why I MUST prevent this from happening NOW!! I MUST achieve my goal of a million by 30! I will eventually become the sole bread winner, compressing whatever experience he has into this short time is not possible but learning how to be successful from successful people is! I MUST gain enough to cover the family, my own future family, give my parents a proper retirement that they deserve, pay up the house loan and still enough to buy a house and car for my family, prepare for my future children's education without worrying if they want to go overseas to study or any private school they are interested in... ALL THIS requires money... I don't love money and definitely don't want to serve it but what money can do in this time, this generation, on earth matters alot.

There are people dying from hunger everyday as we speak. Fortunately, we HAVE the ability to help them.. US, the people of GOD, are not here to hate money and shun away from it just becos it's hard to go heaven. It's how we use the money thats important. It's ok to work hard and earn alot of money, it's ok to be wealthy. It's hard to give away money when you're rich cos of the lifestyle that needs to be given up. So if we can just avoid the thought of having a good lifestyle and just live a normal life, we're ok! We still can earn alot but instead of splurging on ourselves, we splurge on those who really needs it. This is where many would say "For What! I work so hard so those lazy poor assholes get to live! They deserve to die since they're so lazy!" This is why it's easier for a camel to through a needle...

Do you think God wants evil people to become rich? Or good people... I'm really wondering why the good people can be happy with just a normal life. God wants US to be rich! Because He knows we will spend the money wisely and not on branded clothes, branded cars, thousands of shoes or other insignificant 'wants' in our life... He knows... but honestly speaking, how many can escape the temptation when they're rich... Not many but then again did many foresee this problem before they become rich... unlikely... unfortunately this is how the world is, sadly to say...

God, I praise for being such a wonderful God that made this world so perfect even though it seems so sucky to us. Even though my life seems like it's gonna become bad but I believe You will make it become better. I thank you for all the things I've been through, the blood, sweat and tears. I believe that all the setbacks, rejections and pain I've been through will eventually make me a better man, a stronger person and most importantly, more like You, Jesus. I pray you will bless me with the wisdom to know what's good and what's bad. I also pray that you continue to mould me, chisel away all that is impure and displeasing in Your eye. Lastly I pray that You will continue to reassure me of this path I'm taking... In Jesus Christ name I pray, amen.

Had a Vision
on Sunday, October 25, 2009, 10:48 PM

:: Overflowing ::

Nowadays when I go to church, I'd ask myself "WTF am I doing here? I wanna leave church.." I used to have this feeling during my lowest times, like the whole world is against me, everything I did somehow just goes wrong, feeling empty, dry, tired, or just down...

But now this feeling of leaving church comes from a whole new different perspective, I have this feeling of my cup overflowing, I want to go out and reach out to the many souls that are crying, the souls stuck in places where they never had the chance to hear about the good news. They are the people who really needs God's love compared to most people here who are just taking things for granted.

"The cup that gets the most water is the cup that is empty." - me

Applies to our attitude in learning which brings me to why I hate adults, cos as we age with experience, our knowledge grows and so does our pride which leads to our capicity to learn becoming lesser and lesser. We will start to think we know alot and we stop taking advice from others especially younger people but isn't it obvious that more and more younger people are taking over the world? *angry*

This is why I want to deny growing up, not because I don't want to accept responsibilities but I don't want to become ignorant nor arrogant. No matter how many times I deny my age, fact is I'm subconsciously growing. Knowing what's right and wrong, knowing what I must do shouldn't do and more importantly what I really want in life.

I like children, I tend to just stare and admire them alot for their energy, vigor, and most of all, their ability to just do whatever they want and not caring about how others look at them or think of them. In the end, we will realize that actually people don't really care about what we do, they don't really think or look at our 'foolish acts' as much as we thought they would. It has always been ourselves who cared about what we do or how we thought others would think of us. I must say some do, but truth is most don't really care. Come to think of it, they actually envy those who are really living.

"Our greatest enemies that limits us, are ourselves." - me

My advice, go ahead and re-live your childhood. Don't be afraid to show the world how colorful you really are. *wink*

At that time Jesus, full of joy through the Holy Spirit, said, "I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children. Yes, Father, for this was your good pleasure. Luke 10:21

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. - Romans 15:13

For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. - 2 Corinthians 1:5

May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you. - 1 Thessalonians 3:12

Had a Vision
on Monday, October 12, 2009, 8:19 PM

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