Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: Overflowing ::

Nowadays when I go to church, I'd ask myself "WTF am I doing here? I wanna leave church.." I used to have this feeling during my lowest times, like the whole world is against me, everything I did somehow just goes wrong, feeling empty, dry, tired, or just down...

But now this feeling of leaving church comes from a whole new different perspective, I have this feeling of my cup overflowing, I want to go out and reach out to the many souls that are crying, the souls stuck in places where they never had the chance to hear about the good news. They are the people who really needs God's love compared to most people here who are just taking things for granted.

"The cup that gets the most water is the cup that is empty." - me

Applies to our attitude in learning which brings me to why I hate adults, cos as we age with experience, our knowledge grows and so does our pride which leads to our capicity to learn becoming lesser and lesser. We will start to think we know alot and we stop taking advice from others especially younger people but isn't it obvious that more and more younger people are taking over the world? *angry*

This is why I want to deny growing up, not because I don't want to accept responsibilities but I don't want to become ignorant nor arrogant. No matter how many times I deny my age, fact is I'm subconsciously growing. Knowing what's right and wrong, knowing what I must do shouldn't do and more importantly what I really want in life.

I like children, I tend to just stare and admire them alot for their energy, vigor, and most of all, their ability to just do whatever they want and not caring about how others look at them or think of them. In the end, we will realize that actually people don't really care about what we do, they don't really think or look at our 'foolish acts' as much as we thought they would. It has always been ourselves who cared about what we do or how we thought others would think of us. I must say some do, but truth is most don't really care. Come to think of it, they actually envy those who are really living.

"Our greatest enemies that limits us, are ourselves." - me

My advice, go ahead and re-live your childhood. Don't be afraid to show the world how colorful you really are. *wink*

At that time Jesus, full of joy through the Holy Spirit, said, "I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children. Yes, Father, for this was your good pleasure. Luke 10:21

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. - Romans 15:13

For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. - 2 Corinthians 1:5

May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you. - 1 Thessalonians 3:12

Had a Vision
on Monday, October 12, 2009, 8:19 PM