Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: Look Down to Lift Up ::

"The only time a man should look down on another is when he is lifting him up."

That's what it wrote in the poster and has been my inspiring factor.

I was awoken by a nightmare this morning.
I was walking in the mall and I saw one of my past instructors. He saw my incompleted report card from my foundation program that I recently attended and burst out to me saying that I will never succeed.

I immediately retaliated and say he shouldn't say that and he should say "good luck" in chinese. I also shout back in his face how lousy a leader he is giving such discouragement to his men. He is nothing more than a pawn for the king. Leaders use the power of influence for people to follow them and not use their command and control or the authority given to them. Leaders have willing followers that will give their lives for them. Do you?!!

I woke up and started thinking about all the lousy experience I had with the terrible teachers in the past. The bias-ness of the teachers towards the better graded students and their ignorance towards the lousy ones namely ME. Especially my primary school. It continued in Secondary school. My hatred for them grew more and more. I really want to go back one day and tell them how to be a proper teacher.

I believe that teachers can significantly change the lives of an individual more than anyone else. I believe that the teacher's skill in teaching is only as good as the result of the worst student. A leader is as good as the weakest member in the team.

I believe that the only time you can look down on someone is when you want to help them up. Just like what the poster says...

I believe that my destiny is to help these people. The victims that were looked down upon by haughty eyes. I need to give those teachers a lesson!

Had a Vision
on Tuesday, November 10, 2009, 10:53 AM

:: Moving up to a new level ::

"Wise men store up knowledge,
but the mouth of a fool invites ruin." - Proverbs 10:14

I just finished my foundation program yesterday and I can officially sell single premium le. Still got several exams to clear before I'm a full fledged Consultant. I didn't know it's so strict in this country to sell policies.

More importantly, I learnt that insurance is much more than I thought it was. It's not something that everybody can do. It's also not something everybody can buy.

People can't buy it when they really need it, it's usually too late when they realized.

I realize we are the only people who can go to a widow during his husbands wake service and hand her a million dollar cheque and say 'this is what ur husband left behind.' Btw, wake services cost 20k-30k for traditional, 10k for muslims and much higher for christians... Breadwinners are important in a family. They are like the pillars of a family, everything will collapse when they are gone.

I also realize we are the only people who can go to some1 who had just met with a serious accident and can never work for the rest of their life and hand them a big cheque and say 'your hospital bills and medical bills are covered.' Btw, medical bills for serious injuries or critical illness can amount to over 100k and many people suffer financially to the point of bankruptcy due to these unforeseen circumstances. And usually, people can't find a job after this... who's going to take care of them for the rest of their lives?

Knowing this, I've also realize I've got a heavy responsibilty to share this important piece of info that many overlook in their lives...

So don't be surprise if I call. I must start making phone calls le and meeting people...

Btw, I think I'm gonna love this job. I'm considered self-employed. No lump sum of start up capital. Even starting with low network also nevermind, will grow abundantly overtime. Own time own target, call anyone, talk to anyone, go anywhere I like to have coffee and never will I eat a meal alone. The only problem is the millions of rejections I have to face everyday. A career with great rewards and prospects but a career not anyone can manage.

I am paid according to how much effort I put in. If I don't work hard, then I don't deserve to eat. Likewise, If I work hard then I deserve to get paid well, let my parents have a good retirement, send them for holidays, have big parties, provide for the people I love with no worries and that's how it should be.

"Lazy hands make a man poor,
but diligent hands bring wealth." - Proverbs 10:4

Had a Vision
on Saturday, November 07, 2009, 9:22 AM

:: Fireflies by Owl City ::

Not the Official Video but I lazy to post the lyrics so I put this one. Very peaceful song. Makes me want to believe that planet earth turns slowly.

Brings me back to...

"My Tunnel of Life"

After getting lost in darkness, I climbed and crawled in pain sweat and tears in a little tunnel with no light, I just kept crawling and crawling until I finally came out to the main tunnel where I took a long break and thought about what happened.

At that point I've come to realise I've gone through the worst ALONE, and there's nothing that will stop me now!

My path started to move up to a fleet of stairs, I knew I was reaching my destination. I could feel it. I'm giving my all to walk up the stairs, throwing away everything I once carried. Amazingly, the firefly came back to say hello but I ignored it and continued, determined to finish my flight of stairs alone...

But unexpectedly, it felt really warm and I realized that the row of light bulbs were there once again with that same astonishingly bright one at the end of every week but this time it seems larger as it was much much nearer...

Now within reach...

So is the firefly...

I'm left with a choice.

To catch the firefly, the bulb will dim and eventually die.
To take the bulb, the firefly will sting me and die someday. Either one, I'll have a light for the rest of my life but my speed will slow down due to the extra weight that I'll need to provide for any. Batteries for the bulb or food for the firefly.

The last choice is to ignore the both and finish my flight of stairs...

2 months to decide, afterwhich there will be no turning back.

Had a Vision
on Sunday, November 01, 2009, 6:59 PM

:: Out of Body Experience ::

I tried to die today by doing a backflip.

All I remembered was jumping up but didn't remember anything about landing... I saw the room spinning several rounds, thinking I was in the air doing the backflip but when I stopped spinning, I realised I was lying down in a arkward position with my eyes closed, my shirt slightly up, and I heard voices.. "You ok?" "Are you alright?"

Vaguely hearing those voices, I pulled down my shirt and used a hand to cover my face as if in shame. I thought about the experience so I could blog it down. I was thinking how long it was cos it felt like a few hours...

I have a big bump on the back of my head now cos I think I only managed 100-120 degrees flip. I didn't really felt the pain cos it felt more like I came out of my body and was hit back to earth by God or something. Now I guess death isn't something very scary, it'll just be over in less than a second and either I'll see darkness forever or a moment of darkness followed by an eternity of light. I definitely won't remember anything or feel anything at that point. Interesting...

After that I learnt that having a bump is a good thing cos the body is rushing blood towards the area that needs healing. What IS BAD is if it is a dent in the head, then it's a must to rush to a hospital liao. The bump should last for a week or two but any more than that must see doctor liao.

Another thing I learnt that my greatest sin is still pride cos even at death I was still concern about my face...

Help me God.

Had a Vision
on , 4:46 PM