Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: Crossing the Red Sea ::

When we reached the red sea, it was a dead end. Then Moses raised his staff and God opened a path out of nowhere.

We hesitated but still walked through it despite our fears. We kept on walking even though it was tiring, tough and the thought of being swallowed by the sea was at the back of our head.

We trusted the Lord, we perservered, and finally, we were out of the danger zone. The sea engulfed the enemies behind us who continued to pursue on.

There we waited under Mount Sinai for Moses to get further instructions so we can enter our promised land, a good and spacious land, a land flowing with milk and honey — the home of the Canaanites, Hittites, Amorites, Perizzites, Hivites and Jebusites.

It's a new year already!
Ever since I started my journey, there has been many obstacles(red sea).

But God opened a path for me. An opportunity came, I knew it was gonna be a difficult path but still chose to go on.

"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed." - 2 Corinthians 4:8-9

Before starting my career as a Financial Consultant, I signed up for a 2 weeks course called Entrepreneur Action Program, I paid up for Youth Camp, and I also promised to take part in Christmas as a dancer.

So December started with no production, the 2 weeks course was on my last 2 weeks of school, during my exam period, haven't studied, haven't done anything for my assignment. I chose to go all out for the course. Boss questioned my commitment liao.
(felt misunderstood and stressed)

Immediately after the course, I had to choose between going for dance rehearsal or do whatever I can for the assignment I have not done. I wanted to give up on the assignment but God was good, my lecturer said I still had a chance to pass so I chose to go all out for the assignment. Dance leader then questioned my commitment liao... in such a harsh way somemore...
(felt very misunderstood, sad and angry)

Production was still low, my Manager was pushing, Dance Leader was doubting me, family was in chaos, I was sick and in debt and Youth Camp was coming... Honestly, I wanted to give up at that moment but I chose to go all out for Youth Camp. Became last and brought back 5 ulcers.
(felt sad, depressed, like a loser and like giving up)

Exhausted and still sick, my Manager still pushing me as production was still low. Christmas was around the corner, I haven't practice much or rather I never practiced at all for the performances. I chose to go all out for dance and end up working on Christmas night. Followed by making Christmas cards till 3am. Then every other days I've been working from 10am to 10pm all the way till today.
(feeling tired, demoralised, unappreciated, misunderstood, dying)

I tot OCS (JCC inclusive) was the worst I'll ever go through in my lifetime. Now I know the worst is yet to come.

Thank you God for everything that has happened. Thank God I'm not destroyed. Thank God for holding onto me when I felt like giving up. Now I know I've become stronger. Now I know I'm finally out of the 'red sea'. Now I know I'm actually an eagle.

"But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." - Isaiah 40:31

When everything else fails, God's word prevails.

Had a Vision
on Saturday, January 02, 2010, 10:47 PM