Shouldn't be happening when most of the people just started not long ago right? But somehow I think this may not be true...

Think it starts with a little office gossips... starting to feel that it's really unavoidable, it may spark off from a little jealousy, upset, stress, or simply a personality mismatch between people in general.

Then just today I learnt that there's some 'under table

going on... After people in office starts to form little groups, and afraid of whoevers on top, or maybe just some minor things that the people from top just doesn't understands yet still insists on... Then the only solution left is well, to keep them out of the loop.

Sooner or later, things can get pretty serious... little ambiguous fights will start to happen, the internal conflict thats just invisible to the naked eye. The tug of war between the walls is happening all the time...

And of cos, the backstabbing happens all the time... since young... could be due to various reason... also highly unavoidable...

Dear God, today I got a little upset a few times. I was caught and told to wear my cap properly, felt a little freedom striped off, then I saw some smoke grenade thrown to make me think I otherwise, felt a little stab in the back, then after a confrontation with boss, I won but the opposition was a little upset and revealed the 'rumored' double standard going on, a little kindness but was done 'under table'. Finally, my so called 'leader' ran his OCD fingers all over my desktop and 'fix' everything he felt wrong like saying my icons are too big, that opening files should be done with double-click and not expanding them to see, files should be searched using search and not manually, hidden layers should be viewed and edited only by overprint preview then locking instead of hiding the layers. Thank God for making me highly adaptable, thank God that I still can have my long hair and wear jeans, thank God I can still use google search, thank God my boss say I can take leave to go school, thank God this is a very high paying job, thank God I've made some pretty nice friends, thank God I can sleep in my very own bed. Thank you God. Please grant me the will to carry on, the strength take the hits, the discipline to manage my time, courage and the love of God to show how wonderful You are. In Jesus Christ Most Precious Name I pray. Amen.