This is my side of the story... of how the calm sea was shaken by the Shocking pink crab who wanted to test the water.
28 March 2011
First Day @ Gemalto. Reached half an hr early. Saw my boss, said that there was 2 other girls. Saw a girl walked into the canteen. Her pace was fast, put a bunch of stuff on the table and went to get a drink. Seems like the type who is quite established in her life, most likely have a good portfolio, and tons of experience. She dressed with much elegance which spells out, "High Maintenance" to me, she's a little short (a head shorter than me) but a hottie for sure, guessing that she's probably been hit on quite a few times and has a lot of experience with guys too... Probably I have little to no chance getting close to her, feels like she has a wall around her, doors and windows all shut tight.
Then another girl came in, it was the girl who went for interview with me, I knew she'd make it if I made it. She was good! Can communicate well, strong articulation of English and great portfolio. I pretend I didn't see her, played cool until she came to talk to me.
There was much waiting, we talked alot, I was in my "make friends" mode. Prompted alot of questions to find a hot button so we could click. Clicked well YenLee, but Ann was really dao, I guessed I have to use a different approach, so I purposely talk to YenLee more until I had nothing left to talk then finally I talked to her and the first thing I saw was her Madonna tooth, immediately reminded me of my mom. Her points dropped by one. She spoke in Singlish with much ah lian slang in her communication, had tattoos and smoke, how typical can an ah lian get, doesn't really talks alot compared to YenLee when we are having our lunch with our direct supervisor. She made her first stunning moments to me when she said she was jaded. I couldn't believe there will be words I won't understand from an ah lian. She didn't explain to me and told me to Google it myself, Kaoz! Made me feel stupid... better watch out...
11 April 2011
We're getting the hang of things, or at least I am... found out that Robin is an asshole, YenLee is attached and Ann is probably attached, married or engaged as well cos she has a ring on her ring finger and she doesn't really goes home with me and YenLee. Everyone's older and I'm most likely free from all the BGR hoohah. Can focus on my dream.
I'm starting to think she has BDSM or some weird fetish as conversations with her seems to revolve around people naked, BiSai, shitting, peeing, imagination that involves people getting severely hurt in some ways, and has a cardboard made chopper used for fanning herself. (she smells nice) I've never met someone like that, especially a girl! This day was the day she ask for MSN from everyone, suddenly becoming friendly. Makes me wonder what she's up to.
16 April 2011
I was met with a 'pleasant' surprise by this girl. She actually went to find me on facebook. I'm really not into talking and socializing outside of work or school... why did she look for me... hmm...
21 April 2011
It's almost a month, she was transferred to my team and was placed right beside me in office doing the same job of preflight, since it was a high security company, we weren't allowed to have our cellphone inside so we've been talking alot in office, on facebook and smses... she initiates most of the chats... maybe it's normal for her but I don't usually talk to people when I'm alone. So we talked loh... Until somewhere, somehow, there was a little gossiping and cupid playing around me and Ann. The cupids were really messing around with the two of us alot. I found out she was single, I was confused, so why the ring on the ring finger? She can't possibly not know what the ring finger is for, right?
Then at this particular night, she popped a very surprising question. She asked me if I like her. Then many questions popped in my head... why is she asking this? What did I do? What did I say? Is there a chance she has feelings for me already? I did have some feelings for her but tried to avoid the topic and beat around the bush abit giving very vague answers as I thought she is still with someone and I didn't want to ruin their relationship. I tried as hard as possible to pull away from the topic as I know it will get very awkward in office. I thought finally I could pull it off by comparing what GJ was doing, I said, "Well, I didn't send you home nor kiss you on the cheek and ran away, what do you think?" but to my even bigger surprise, she said "Just so you know, I do admire some of your traits.." To which I replied, "yea, me too then." I'm like huh?! So was that like a confession? So now what? I'm not looking for any relationship right now. I declared that we'd be friends first. The next working day was really awkward as expected but we warmed back up soon after... She started her short-selling to convince me that she's no good. I wasn't convinced, in fact I realized that there's something very special about her I couldn't put into words...
6 May 2011
She cried 2 times since... and I wasn't there... I found out that she really was with someone... Questions popped up again. So is she using me to teach her 'bf' a lesson? Am I her rebound? Is she a player? I tried to stay away and not be too close to her since we're still friends. I still had feelings for her, a little stronger than before, talked to many of my friends and pretty much decided that I will give it a try. So this night we went out to Clarke Quay, had some booze. We were placed in very uncomfortable positions emotionally when we played Truth or Dare. We played till around 3am. I had to send the girls home, it was only right to do so. She insisted to go home herself, but in a flash of a moment, I grabbed her wrist and pulled her into the cab. My determination was stronger. Then she suggested to send Daisy home first, which we did. Then I alighted at her place to make sure she's home safely, she wasn't really sober and I had to pee. She went up, and I went to pee. So that was it I thought.
I thought wrong! After I peed, she called to tell me she came back down to look for me and wanted to talk, I quickly walked back to her place, not knowing she already came looking for me. How drama is that! So as I expected, the talk was about us, but surprisingly, she also decided... the opposite of what I decided, I wanted to give this a try but she was short selling herself again. Saying she no good and all. She say she wasn't ready. It was a little tug of war that ended 2 hrs later, I asked if she wanted a hug cos I felt she needed one and to my surprise after saying she's not ready, she leaped into my arms gave me a really tight hug! Then a another stunner came when she hugged halfway and stopped to ask if I was okay?! I was uber in shock! What was that question for, what does the hug means, what exactly is this girl up to??! She's saying no but doesn't act like a no at all... I took a cab home... confused but happy.
9 May 2011
This day was quite a shocker for me again, I thought it was a normal day until at night I found out she was crying alone somewhere after work, I wanted to go home, but GJ made it sound worst than it seems so I ran as fast as I could to find her only to be pushed away and asked to go home, I tried to comfort her but wasn't in the position to comfort her through touch. I just don't anyhow touch girls unlike most people. It was when I almost walked away then she started talking... I couldn't quite remember what was said but I managed to make her laugh finally. Then the conversation went back to us. She still wasn't ready so I thought we'll go slowly then, stay as friends maybe until July but she say she only needed 2 weeks. So we agreed to wait... but she stun me again! The next evening, she invited me to have dinner with her parents!!! I was like... what the... again, I was confused but happy.
14-15 May 2011
The rest of the week we talked alot, she was short-selling herself again and kept asking if I was really okay with seeing her parents. I re-affirmed her time and time again. She cried alot this week also... over her Ex...
Saturday was here, it was the first time we, as friends in the workplace go out together. I didn't expect it to be a long day but it was a long day... which ended in some very drama goose chase... (not my story, not gonna write) I sent her home, the short-selling conversation still went on... in my car, I re-affirmed her again and she left me with a super long hug and 2 surprising pecks on my cheek. She didn't let go after the peck, I felt that she wanted a peck back but I told her I don't do kisses, wanted to save for wedding day. So she finally left the car, both of us seem very happy, I was smiling ear to ear all the way back... it was the first time I was kissed by a girl. Not counting family and relatives.
So the next day, I was like... wait a minute... she hugged me and kiss me so doesn't that means we're together? So I went to confirm with her before I went to meet her parents for dinner. 15 May 2011. Official date. We laid down the rules for the relationship, no calling her ah lian, gave me the green light to hug anytime. Expects me to hold her hand and also expects a little peck on the cheek every now and then. I agreed, no lip to lip kissing though, I heard of no kissing till wedding day stories and thought it was kind of nice and wanted it as well. So anyway, today was the day the stars seems so much brighter that I could see them in the day time! And so begins the story of Ann Choo & Andrew Wai...
17 May 2011
It was only 2 days and I've met up with her best friends... It was cool, they were nice people, not as judgmental as I thought it would be. We had a few good laughs so I guess I passed.
18 May 2011
Then the very next day, the 3rd day into our relationship we quarreled! Oh my! 3 days! I was just as hurt but I kept it inside and quickly apologized first... I can't lose her now... It was like the fish who bit my little finger and got away. Said I broke her into smaller pieces...
19 May 2011
I took half day off to settle a signature in school then I switched off my phone, I didn't know how to talk to her, just couldn't find the right words, in fear of ever hurting her again. That night I went to the beach to pray and cry for 2 hours before I went home and I lied to her that my battery died cos the night b4 never charge so I didn't reply her. (reasonable excuse I think) Then we talked over the phone and sorted things out, only to realize we've fallen deeper than we thought. =)
22 May 2011
Our one week anniversary, I was too busy with my project and couldn't go out with her but to my surprise again! She wanted to pass me something, insisted very much to get my address and I thought it was a hug but wow, she passed me a love token, a couple necklace, loosely around our neck, hanging close to the heart, pendant was a ring with 2 diamond stars and with our initials embedded on each other. How sweet and so silly of her, I brought her up to my place to wait till I finish my project then I can send her home. It was very late, we hugged and I pecked her cheek, she pecked mine in the car, I could feel like she wanted the kiss on the lips but I looked away, she still held on to me, I insisted to keep it for wedding day but she said the most stunning thing ever in my life, at first she asked if I'm really gonna call the cops if she took my first kiss with which I replied no la, then she blurted out "I'm gonna rape you!" Still holding onto me, she just lean in for it and she was so determined to kiss me, I struggled abit but eventually her determination won, I was just too weak at the same time I sort of wanted and I just couldn't reject her. It takes alot of courage for a girl to initiate something like that, had to give it to her. It was really strange at first cos I didn't know how but slowly I got the hang of it and we almost tongued... I thought it would taste weird but turned out to be so yummy! Then I got addicted... I did alot of kissing and hugging later on in our relationship...
And this is the story of my first kiss... the story goes on, even more drama, tears, laughter and excitement but it also gets a little NC-16 and above so to avoid me being bashed up, elbowed, kicked, punched, pinched, bitten, kneed, and side stared at by my girlfriend who is going to bash me up anyway for posting this, I shall not continue. Despite the abuse, bite marks and blue-blacks, to most people reading this, you must think I am blind and really crazy to have fallen for such an amazing girl like her. Truth is, I know I'm blind and crazy but I still love her very much...