Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: ARGH!!!! ::

firstly, the below content will be rated M18 as there will be some violence involved, so pls stop reading if u find it offensive.

FUCKED UP!! wat a fucked up day! fucked up mom! fucked up dad! fucked up house! fucked up family! fucked up life! fucked up neighbor! fucked up people! fucked up friends! fucked up classmates! fucked up schoolmates! fucked up guys! fucked up girls! fucked up world! fucked up school! to me everything's so fucking fucked up today!!

hmmm... tt doesn't seems to be enough.. yet the very thought of today feels like thousands of arrows piercing thru me.. so i shan't utter a word of wat today was like nor share anything tt happen today... all i CAN do is change myself and i pray tt God will help me... let's list how to change myself, how to be a better person, how to live a life tt will bring smiles to people, how to live a life selflessly, how to glorify God's name...

i try n try n try again n again n again, but i simply cannot keep up with life... days r passing by, people r dieing, soon i'll face death too BUT b4 tt... wat did i do on earth? wat's the purpose? 1 of my frens said is to have a good job, marry a good spouse, have a good family, raise up good children... is tt really all?? but then again, it's not easy, has any1 done it? -end of runting

Prayer: Heavenly Father, i need you!! please take control of my life! Make me realise how not important are the things that does not matter, and how important the things that really matters. Cease my anger, take control of me. Let the fruit of the Holy Spirit grow from within me and thus, strenghten me once again so i may face another day with assurance that you are with me today guiding me and directing me on the path that glorifies your name, thank you. In Jesus name, amen.

btw, iris if u're reading this, thx! when u told me i'm stronger than i really am... it means alot to me...

to the rest, i know i'm arrogant, i know i like to self praise but tt's becos i dun hear enough from YOU people who only look on the glass half empty instead of the glass is half full... who look at the little dirt on the white shirt instead of the white shirt... who sees only the problem and blame instead of the solution... who search out only the flaws instead of searching out the talents... NOBODY'S perfect wat! tt's y i say u all fucked up manz! gd nite u fuckers!

again, i'd like to apologise for the imaturity of the content... this is my blog, my story.

Had a Vision
on Thursday, April 06, 2006, 1:12 AM