Fai†hfully Preparing my Fields for the Rain

:: I've been sick... but who cares... ::

I've been sick for like 2 weeks? but now i'm ok le... thank God... yesterday which i tot would be bad turned out ok... but today which i expected something turned out bad... haha

yesterday morning, i was still sick so i asked zhenling to pray for me which she did, though i tot she would call to pray but she prayed then msged me to ask me how i was.. so i tell her i'm better, but at that point i was eating kfc spicy chicken so my nose started to run due to the spicyness... so i told her i better but have running nose, so she prayed for my nose also, and I was cured!! Praise the Lord!

When I was leaving for cell group I was still like having a little feverish and giddy though so i popped a panadol b4 i left... On my way was quite jialat manz... I keep having these half blackouts... it feels like my brains shut down for that split second... like my com suddenly restart that kind of feeling... In cell, I was ok but I started to happen again in the eveing when I was on my way home... phew... thank God it's not a complete blackout.

As for today, I tot it would be a good day... cos i was early in church which i happen to told iris i will be late but God is good to me so I reached just on time and could even had breakfast before we started praying. I have to admit, Great initiative there by Iris, asking us to pray despite Faith not being there...

ok, so anyway the next 'bad' thing that happen was the worship... the sound was... haiz... how should i say this...? Distracting? The lower frequency of the guitar was just... haiz... and loud!!! the other instruments feel like they're all hidden in the background with the haiz... guitar so upfront... then i was like haiz... so close to the speaker...

Next, the sermon... The only thing I remember is the title... "the 3 must do" n i can't even remember what were the 3 things... haiz... then after sermon was just pathetic... simply pathetic... grown men can't decide what to eat for lunch... haiz... next time they ask, I'll say Eastlink. (full-stop)

On our way to tampines was rather interesting... I realise how typical people were when bad things happen and how quickly they would throw the blame on others... haiz... so everyone's sick because of me! I'll take the blame then... Haiz... (the sigh of the spirit) Then this emo guy suddenly emo... haiz... On my way home with someone (keep wearing that earphone) also so emo... whatever lah! whatever lah! You all know who lah! Anything lah! haiz... dunno who's trying to be special... haiz...

At home, my mei using com so i do what? stare at her play loh... then later she let me try that stupid game... which she kept complaining i play so slow... which i really did play very slowly but tactically enough for me to reach a rather high level on my first try... (spent like 1hr+ on it) eventually i pass to her and decided to watch MTV... finally, the last straw... my dad... say me again... he doesn't seem satisfied with me in everything I do manz... last few times was I train not enough, right after saying I train too much in a day, today he even has problem with me eating mango in the kitchen n not in the dining room? huh?! cannot eat mango in the kitchen just becos our ah gong does that? huh?! wah seh... dun say msn... i feel like appearing offline or better just stay sign out... In the end I took some out on my mom... I indirectly called her to shut up... haiz...

still I have to say there are something's that happen though... like my femine name... Sofie (she's special, she doesn't watch soccer and she plays sims)
YT gave me that name followed by another good one... Jushadlunchtats (long name but if written together with my full name... Jushadlunchtats Wai Shoufu --- that's not my english name btw... >.> <.<

total "haiz..." = 12

Dear Heavenly Father, I know you love me, I also know that you have a plan for me, I just want to say that those sighs I had today were the disappointments I had... I know that where there are dissappontments, there were expectations and when they were not met then there is a sigh... Lord I pray for your forgiveness... forgive me to take life for granted, forgive me for expecting too much and not realizing how blessed I already am... Holy Spirit, I pray you would use those sighs and transform them into something that would help me become stronger so that I will not get discouraged and have doubts, guide me on how to appreciate what I already have, teach me to be a better person and remind me not to expect too much than what I already have. In Jesus Christ most precious name I pray, amen.

Had a Vision
on Sunday, May 20, 2007, 10:29 PM